my online boyfriend of five years has completely ruined me so bad to the point where, everytime i look at myself or even the thought of him disgusts me so bad. The day we broke up was july 2 at 4-5 am, where i couldnt take it no more and told him how i felt. In the conclusion i told him i wanted to break up and he let me go so easily, like being together for a long period of time meant nothing to him. It went by so quick i didnt have the time to process anything, his reply back was "okay?" like was all thoes promises you made were for nothing? Now, i dont expect him to be begging but i was wanting him to change. I would say the we had grown closer to the point where everytime i try to have a conversation with him, he would only want nu*** out of me, he would only want to talk to me if i gave him something that would satisfy him. i had gotten so drained from it i kept giving in, because im the type of person that in the end i feel bad for anyone and anything. He had manipulated me also.