Been with my bf for nearly 17 years and he’s amazing to me he has done so much for me and my siblings even helped me raised them when my mother passed. They are all older now and moved out. I have been cheating with a co worker I’ve only known for a few months and I feel like absolute shit. Turns out we started to really like eachother and he told me today I have to choose him or my bf. It devastated me because not only am I horrible for doing this to begin with I have now hurt another person in the process. I ended things with the co worker and now I’ll wonder if I’ll carry regret forever not giving him a chance or why I even did this to my amazing bf to begin with. I know I’m a horrible person and feel like shit just getting this all off my chest or wondering if anyone has been there