I am an absolute nuisance to everyone around me. If I dissappeared, nobody would care, why would they? I am annoying and forgetable. If I jumped out the window to my death, people will only come it my funeral to be polite, as they sit with the payed mourners they'll talk about how maybe its good I'm gone. Then they'll forget about me, like a childhood goldfish destined to get replaced. I am truly dispensible. I hate it.

I constantly feel like a hassle, Everything I do annoys someone. I don't mean to be annoying, I don't want to be annoying but I am literally just an awful and annoying person. I hate it, I hate myself. I wanted to write this out to maybe have someone say "ohh no its ok i bet your lovely" but I've seen this exact same mindset on the most toxic people ever. Am I just toxic?? Because if I am, I don't mean to be. I'm sorry if anyone is reading this, I'm sorry.

how the hell can one person sleep all night till 4:30p the next fucking day? lord knows i wish i could but god forbid i even sleep in a extra hour or two when i can. immediately bitched at when i first wake up this morning but its okay for you to sleep all day just for you to get up and smoke fucking weed and do nothing for the rest of the night? and i get it the weed helps with whatever. im not asking you to stop (it makes you fucking easier to deal with, youre a better person when youre high)ypure a dick when youre sober