I'm an exchange student and my last real day is today. But i don't wanna leave. Like not one "i love it here so much, i never wanna leave again" kinda way, but more of a "i don't wanna go back. I don't want my old lifeback. I like the life i build here". And it is not just like an easy feeling, it is painful. It seems like my body tells me no. When i just think about hoing back, i get a panick attack. Also my sleep problems got way worse. And i know that it is because of that. I know it sounds bad, i had a great life back in my home country, many friends, a (good) family, my grades got better, i did so much stuf,... . But now, i can't even imagine going back to my family, or seeing my friends irl again. I know it sounds bad, but i get panick attaks, just thinking about going back, and the worst thing is, i know i will go emotionally numb whrn i go back. I never talk about my own feelings, but i know that my emotions will crush me as soon as i get back and that my emotions will go numb