I'm so done, everyday depression drags me deeper and deeper I struggle to look for a reason. I'm neglecting my beautiful girlfriend because I can't even deal with my own shit. I hate this feeling, I can't vent to anyone they have bigger problems . Like ffs I'm contemplating kms because depression meanwhile my best friends mum has cancer. My struggles seem so small and yet they effect me so much. My parents love my sister more than they have ever loved me, random yt-bers feel more parental than mu own parents do. I hate living here and I hate myself, I don't want to be a girl yet no one will take me seriously even if I was a boy. I hate my hair and my face I avoid mirrors so much, whenever I look at myself I feel sick. I cant picture doing my gcses Or even growing up. And I hate who I have become and who I am.