I hate my life. It's so mundane and I feel so locked. I live in a somewhat small republican town. It's mostly elderly and military here. I'm gay and I'm terrified to be completely open with who I am. I want to find love. I want to find myself. I want to find a reason to live. Overall, I'm full of hate. I can feel something within me that just wants to set the world on fire. I want revenge I suppose. Revenge for not being able to be me. Revenge for having to hide myself. My entire life has been a lie. I am not me I'm who they want me to be. For safety I have to lie. I just hate everything and I want it to stop.
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