Does anyone think about the lack of meaning created by technology and social media ? I never feel like I'm good at anything because I keep comparing myself so much. The only reason I sometimes get enough energy to do anything is through the anxiety generated by my shame and feeling behind all the time. I'm always torn between wanting to post my life on Instagram and wanting to remove myself from existence. Not by committing suicide, but by withdrawing from technology almost completely (at least for my private life, cuz I still need to eat). No more smartphone, no more social media, no more Netflix, easy access to music with Spotify, only boredom. I desperately need to find meaning. Everything weighs so much. Daily life is disappointing my past, current, or future self.