I feel so shitty almost everyday. For context, I am an incoming freshman, I have high dreams and aspirations for myself, I've also planned and imagined my college life, and now, I feel that everything is crumbling down. I did not pass any of the 'top' universities in my country, I also did not pass my dream university. I feel that I've let so much opportunities go, and I feel that this is the best I can do. During junior year, I only applied to one university to transfer for the senior year, which became one of my biggest regret right now. How I've hoped I passed a re-application letter once I received the letter of rejection, how I wished I also applied to other big universities, how I wished I can turn back time and redo all of my decisions. Currently, I am enrolled in a back-up school that I did not saw myself in, but they offer my priority course. How I wished I just did better during the applications season, reviewed all my decisions, studied for the exams, and performed well.