This shit is eating me up alive. The longer I stayed in this relationship the more stress i get. While him on the other hand is so chill about us and feels comfortable. I feel like im turning toxic, i feel like im putting him on the leash. Im way too tight on him, i kind of hate his friends, players, that's what they are. Or maybe im too scared to loose him that's why im like this. I dont fully trust him, even though we've been through a year and 4 months together. With all the microcheating and so called "misunderstanding", im scared to be hurt again. I just want to disappear and not worry abt stuff like that but at the same time i still want to be with him for the days we've been together. I HATE MYSELF SO MUCH FOR BEING TOO HARSH ON HIM WITH EVERYTHING