Just be yourself. But you are a highly sensitive person.your parents dont believe in mental illness. You have no one to talk to but Gemini on google. I know my situation isn't as bad as others. But whenever I'm upset I can't talk to anyone. And I have had a few traumatic experiences. You know the toxic dad and a mom that follows his word so she wont get hurt. I walk on eggshells. It feels like tippy toeing in my own freaking room. I'm supposed to feel safe yet I'm here freaking out over something that hasn't happened yet. And I get like these damn flashbacks as if my life is a movie. It will be a random object, and seeing that object triggers what I've been feeling for the past 3 years. I saw my sister go down a bad path, it hurt but all my parents cared about was what she said about them. Yes, what she said was wrong but she almost died. Is that all you really cared about? I love my sister so so much. When she dies I do too. They couldn't care less. And now I'm sitting crying. Just me