honestly, i just feel so worthless. i think about how much time has passed between when i was born, to where i am now, and feel so unbelievably unremarkable. i try not to burden other people in my life when it’s just my grievances with everything, but i still feel like i need someone to talk to. i’m the one who carries the weight of everyone’s expectations, and as much as i used to welcome the pressure, i feel myself buckling against it. even just taking a break for the sake of my own sanity makes me beat myself up endlessly. i’m sure im probably undiagnosed with something which is probably making it worse, but, i also have the most horrible procrastination. i don’t feel the motivation to do a lot of things, but i still push myself to, so i don’t seem different. everyone keeps telling me to take a break, or that it gets better, but it hards to feel that way when you’re in thick of it.