I wanna leave my house. It dosent feel safe, its not a home. My dad says he loves me but in the end the only person getting screamed at is me. My mom says she loves me too but in the end she only protects my brother. Im japanese and have dyslexia. Its very hard for me to read japanese or write so i often get low test results. Ranging from 20-10/100. It sucks, i cant keep up with everyone. Whenever i try to study, they keep coming to my room (which has no door so i placed a curtain but it doesn't change) they barge into my room without permission. I told them MANY times but to no avail. Even if i try i will always get a bad score..im starting to give up.. also, i always forgave my parents and my brother whenever they hurt my feelings or kicked me or even stole stuff. But recently i cant take it anymore. Im ignoring them as much as i can because i might accidentally kill them. I once tried to stab my brother with a knife when he punched my ear.1000 words isnt enough to explain all so bye