i dont know whats wrong with me but i feel so alone and distant from everyone and it doesnt make sense, i keep trying my best to FEEL love, to embrace it, but i always come back feeling just as if not more lonely. it keeps building up more and more and i have no clue what to do anymore. i want to also create and learn stuff like alot of things, i have alot of things to do. but i dont have the energy to do them, even if they are likely possible to do or archeiveable i just dont find either the time or the energy to do them at all. and im stuck, im fed up with everything and everyone. and i just feel so awefully alone. ive kept trying to put it into words like how i usually do but it always sounds poetically broken or a miss-match to how i TRULY feel because the feeling that i have is more thorough than it. i dont know what to do please help me