I wanna throw up my organs I feel so disgusting with myself. I can't stop having these thoughts. Mom says im just going thrue puperty. But ive had these thoughts since I was 9. I hate having internet access. But I cant go a single day without it. Ever since I used a pencil sharpener blade to cut myself scissors just havent felt the same. They can't cut the skin properly and the pain doesn't last as long. I just want to have a normal teenage life without wanting to have sexual thoughts about everyone I know