I think I've finally entered a point in my life where if I disappeared, no interaction with anybody, nobody would think about it. Nobody would come to find me. I've lost a lot of people, and I keep thinking I'm the perfect in sync embodiment of self-reliance. I think I'm just scared and way too cynical. I hate that the only things I can empathize with at this point are flying moths in my room and fictional characters on my screen. I don't feel like a normal human girl. I feel like leftovers.