im sad that i miss my gf so much but idk how to express it so much im not the type to usually do that because i do it more with actions instead of words or online, im grumpy as of rn because i didnt get to see her yesterday but got sad when i saw she didnt have the same effects as mean that she couldnt see me but its fine everyone is different i understood that but i wish more efforts were used to see me yk? or idek ik my approach isnt so valid because you could be saying i could easily fix this issue by saying or doing something and your right but i dont have transportation to get to her, she makes me nervous and scared of my words sometimes when it gets to these serious moments and i know how to fix them but i dont have the energy or motivating feeling to do them, maybe as time pass just a bit more i'll build up some more courage to say what i feel about her and apologize for my terrible actions that shouldnt even have made this such a problem in the first place.