Born a submissive guy and half my projected life gone. Not once ever have I had a hug from someone who I liked... I havent had a chance to meet anyone because I'm trapped in awful places. I don't need a shrink to say I'm jealous but there's days I wish someone shoots me, that way I don't have to waking up alone or scared anymore. Can't even to pay someone to spend time with me. Everything's hell, but I have to put up with living, right? Honestly almost ready for someone to end me. Why live when I cant get enough support, sorry that I require more attention, I've been holding years of not being cared I breathe in and there's groups of people who don't want me around. Can't wait to see, what are you talking about messages... It's pretty fucking clear i'm tired of being alone, cutoff and sick of not having a way to deal with needs met for starters to the point dying seems logical. Sure I'm being called manipulative too for this, never allowed to say how I fucking feel, right, people?