im so sick of myself and talking about my problems. i genuinely dont even care and just want it all to stop. i was super suicidal when i was 14 and was cutting like at least twice a day. i had made a plan and wrote letters and stuff and then my mum found messages i had sent to a friend and got me into therapy cause no one knew i was still doing it recently its just gotten bad again. ive started cutting again but my leg this time and my relationship with food has never been worse. some days i dont feel like eating, then others i will have something but then purge it, and then sometimes i feel fine. everything just feels too much and nobody wants to listen to me complain about the same problems from two years ago. i got better and now i fucked it up and its gotten worse. i hate everything sometimes. especially myself.