i just feel so ugly. i can't look at myself in the mirror without feeling like shit. i don't know when I started to care so much about looks, but no matter what I do i just feel like a pig playing dress up. no matter how much weight I lose, or how much i eat less, or even how much makeup i put on, i come out worse than before. I barely get any attention from guys. I guess the reason why I feel this way is because my best friend and I just came to this new school, and she gets complimented all the time while I'm sitting next to her, but I'm barely even spared a glance. Am I not pretty enough? Will i ever be considered pretty enough? God, why did you even let me live this long? I feel like I should've killed myself back when i was at my worst.