I know this rant isn't anything compared to some I see on this website. I recognize my privilege to be in therapy, medicated, and to have a loving family (I currently still live at home because I'm in high school). But my OCD intrusive thoughts and impulses were absolutely terrible and have been for a while. I can't talk to or think about my dad normally because some crazy "what if incest" thought appears. I can't talk or relate to certain people with a link to an old mental obsession because I'm crazy embarassed of it, I don't want to specify because I'm so ashamed. Speaking of which, I don't know what part of me caused me to do this, but I obsess over the utmost random things (names, concepts, characters) in an incredibly disruptive and unpleasant way, gahhh its hard to describe but it's hard. I've felt the need to scream a lot recently, but also the urge to conceal my feelings and its just left me confused. My thoughts are thoughts, but it is difficult to grasp that. Thanks 4 readin