i just want to die. i want to kill myself but i can't. i have tried everything, i gave lots of efforts trying to make things better, and far from helping all of this just made things worse. i've been going through a depression that has consumed me, i'm 15 i think i have time but now i just can't do anything. principally what has destroyed me is every single friend leaving me. i'm completely alone now i don't have any friends. well i might have some but at the end of the day i still feel alone, they are friends who can't help you with bad things, well better said they don't care. they just leave me behind. i've never be getting text messages. i wake up to my phone completely empty, only notification is from the weather. i realized i'm always the one who text first and if i don't text first i'm just completely forgotten, nobody gives a shit about me. only thing i want is love, not even in a romantic way like just love from a friend, i want to feel like someone cares about me :(