Feel like ive wasted most of my life away. Im 31, got nothing to show for it, lonely, no money, ive got hobbies but i really just dont feel like doing em, got no interest in new hobbies, Autism, people around me who just have an easy coddled life and think theyre better than me specifically yet i have to be the bigger man for some reason. This guy had a go at me , verbal abuse, blaming me for many things, having a go at me for things that arent even real problems yet all his new friends that he cares more about (im family btw) all do the things that are a problem when i do it but not when they do it day in day out and im supposed to just sit here and accept that apparently? he had a go at me a few years ago a full on argument with me to which i never responded to anything he said because i hate that sort of thing and he never forgave ME?! For what exactly?? I just cannot wrap my head around anything anymore its been on my mind for years i need help/