I feel like I’ll always be shunned by the world. I had some very triggering things happen today and it’s brought up a lot of emotions. The best word you could use to describe me is queer. But it’s not the kind people like. I’m not palatable for the community that’s supposed to support me. I always feel…odd. I was diagnosed with Autism a while ago and I think that kinda helps explain things..IDK. I learned that I mask pretty heavily but I can’t take that mask off even alone. I’m constantly performing while everyone else doesn’t have to. But even my performance isn’t good enough all the time. I’m not Autistic UwU Neurospicy enough, I’m not queer enough in the right way. I just feel like a monster constantly, because I’m not a pink pretty girl or femme or white. I just…feel so alone in that regard you know? I want to start going by They/Them, I wanted to for a while, I just want to be a person without a Box or label. But I feel as soon as I step forward, I get shoved back in the closet