I am feeling upset that nobody helped me as a child. I was growing up in separated homes and each was toxic and abusive, although one got significantly worse. In elementary school I barely spoke, had almost no friends, and was constantly forgotten, to the point where teachers wouldn't give me a paper. I had nobody to talk to about how unstable and unsafe things were at home. Nobody to talk to about the unaddressed bullying at school or the uncomfortable touching at home. I am 18 and angry. Angry at the people who hurt me whom will never understand or apologize. Angry that no adult ever stepped in, or made me feel seen, and that the few that did later on, never said anything. I am angry at myself for never speaking up, for being naive and trusting those that hurt me. Im so angry