I miss him so much, that I remember all the memories we made. It's so weird how you make me feel so safe and seen. How can you enter into my life when I said I was not looking for anyone and you came along? You're handsome, tall, funny, you're older than me, you have so much that I find attractive and I rarely find some guys attractive. You are someone I want to keep in my life,even as a friend. You mean so much to me that somehow you calm me down and let me feel vulnerable which is so rare. What are you doing to me? Why are you here? Who sent you? If it's God testing, i am not your strongest soldier because he's kinda what I want right now