Hi. Ive been feeling sad recently. School just ended and im really glad its over but im also not? I miss my friends that i talked to to cope but now its summer break and we’re going to different schools. Im alone but ive always been alone for as long as i can remember. I also think ive been sad my whole life. I never really considered myself having a lot of friends. Sometimes i dont even know what counts as a friend anymore. I feel like i dont call most ppl my friends because im so used to be alone. I even think my best friend doesnt call me his best friend. I really hope reincarnation exists so i wouldnt have to be an awkward and shy person. And maybe i could be really smart. I think im smarter than most people but if u put me in a room full of smart people i woulnt stand out. I hate not being excellent at anything. Im also overweight so what do i have going for me lol? Is it weird that i value my online friend more than my real friends? I dont know anymore.