i can't stand my life anymore, i'm completely alone, every friend left me, i have absolutely nobody and have been with a deep depression for so many time, i just can't and i feel trapped cuz i can't kill myself, i gave so much to friends who ended up leaving me when i needed them the most, i just feel tired i don't want to continue on this world, why all of this, i don't think, honestly i think i don't deserve any of this that has been going on, i just want to disappear, fade away.