I dont know what the fuck im suppose to do at this point, im already burntout to the point i just cant even try to get up in the morning my lazy ass cant even fucking get up just to throw trash and causes my mum to get pissed and threaten me like rasie her fist and yell,im also scared of both my parents since if i mess up infront of them i immediately think im going to be yelled at even if its a a small mistake i immediately think that, i wanna commit it so bad but im such a pussy that i didnt yet and i crave wanting to sh but i jst dont wanna bleed everywhere and i crave pain but im such a coward that i try to use scissors to sh but i never have time so ive been clean for a while now, i wana heal so fucking badly but i also want things to stay.the same, ik its not healthy and shit but damn plus i vented to my mum once and she immediately forgot WHY IM FUCKING LIKE THIS also im a minor so uh yeah, ive been wanting to vent to friends but they always make it to be them venting, kk bye ig