I've been struggling with depression lately. And today didn't help at all. I have (or, at least, I'm positive in have - I don't mean to be a self-diagnoser, but no one will take me to get testes) Autism, and sometimes, I just need time alone. Sometimes, the only way I can communicate is through text or notes, and some times, I cannot bring myself to leave my room. Today, we - my emotionally unpredictable (and possibly emotionally abusive) mother and hyperactive little brother - were going to go to church. But I was feeling unwell mentally, and so while my mom was blow drying her hair, I slipped a note under the door basically saying 'I need to stay home today'. Here is where the memory gets foggy. I remember she got angry, and demanded why I 'couldn't just tell it to her earlier',and 'why do you need to speak by notes?'. I told her directly that sometimes, I just can't talk. (1/2)