i'm 15 i have wasted so many time of my life giving things and helping people that would just leave me behind when i was the one needing support. i'm just so tired of everything and i am completely alone, i got left with no friends and all of this while going through a very deep depression, i feel horrible i can't even explain the thing i feel daily, i just feel horrible having literally nobody to get to when i'm doing bad like now. sometimes i think what thing i did in my life to deserve this? why do i have to suffer so many now like i'm just 15 dam i just want to do some teen shit before i get to like 18 this has been lasting for so long, sometimes i just want a friend i could be in the good and bad ones... everyday my mind gets flooded with thoughts of ending it all and i just can't stand it anymore i'm so fucking tired, drained out of energy, daily tasks feel so fucking horrible i have no motivation to keep living my life is just a shit so pathetic