i love my boyfriend, i do. but sometimes i cant help but think if i only think that way because he's the first person to ever show interest in me or if i actually do like him. and i feel like such a shit person for thinking this way but i cant help it. its like in my darkest moments when i can only think, everything judst comes crashing onto me. what if he doesnt actually like me? what if hes just waiting for the next, better person to come along? im just stuck in this endless cycle and i hate it and most if all i think i just hate myself.
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