Rant #5502

i go to a private christian school and i'm gay. i just want to be myself i envy those with friends and family that support them. i'll never find highschool love and i just want to cry and i feel so guilty and ashamed just cause i like the same gender. i have like this fake persona around all my school friends and i lie to them and i tell them i pray every day and i agree when they want me to go to church with them and when i show them any sign of my true self they give me weird looks. like i said i want an eyebrow piercing and my friend was really getting mad at me and telling me it's a sin gosh if only they knew