I feel like my life is heading nowhere. I have no degree, no passion, no will, no promise. I feel like there is an empty, pointless future ahead of me. I love art, but it is a pointless degree this day and age- I'm not entirely good at it either. Not in the way professionals are. I have no friends either. I'm 22 and I've never had someone to call me their best friend. I'm always second or even third pick. Every connection I have made has been online. It's not enough/ I yearn for s community, or a group I belong in. I want to go out, have fun, make memories. I want game nights and to go out. I want stupid, pointless trips to the store just to hang out with my friends. I have a partner, who is long distance. They help. But sometimes it makes me feel more alone. I have no one to hug when I'm sad. My future is bleak, and I don't like it.