So I lost my mom a few years back after a long, painful illness. I hardly had a chance to grieve and was having to deal with hubby's health issues which involved several years of going to emergency several times a week. He was horrible to me daily to the point where I would cry all the way home from work and not want to come home. He has always been emotionally abusive with anger issues the decades we have been together. Physically abusive a few times too but I put a stop to that. During all this, I landed my dream job and lost it a year later due to restructuring. Landed another job and owners were "wacko" so I took another job that laid me off due to recession. Now I find out a sibling is terminally ill and another sibling is starting to show symptoms too. I may have the same disease that may also get passed on to my child. I am struggling to cope.