What's the use to have long distance family who never speaks to you? May as well not existed or been related at all my opinion. What once a year from 1 maybe? Out of multiple? Sure I care for them but that's b.s. that's another thing that frustrates me. Idk my family is so effed up I just don't get it. Then I'll hear blah blah blah they probably got their own lives. Sure I'm sure they do. But you can make time for people and something you care for is my point. Perhaps I feel too deeply and care too deeply. Well no apologies for being me though. Is what it is despite how much I despise that saying. Love y'all too even if you don't me.