I am not good enough. I am not good at anything, but I try so hard. My best friend is good at everything and she does it half ass. I feel so upset, but I don't have anyone to talk too. I don't even want to be good, I want to great. THE BEST. Kind of like a superhero or the chosen one type-thing. I want to be appreciated. To be so different, to be so myself and be honored. I want to be known. I want life to be worth it not in the wasting it sense, but in the this is absolute torture and if I keep going and it doesn't get better why am I wasting my time with all this pain. I am too passionate. I feel everything so deep in my soul - which sucks. But whats worse is when I feel my soul break, when I feel it's contents get to heavy and bursts or stretches at the edges. I am not externally sensitive, but at any given time I could suddenly feel like i'm wading in freezing water with tide coming in and out, waves crashing on me, a thunderstorm in the sky. I'm surprised I have not drowned yet