I have always been wondering about how being a normal person feels. I learn things from scratch mostly, most of my emotions are ignored or only be listened once and my parents forget all of that. Idk if, having boundaries is wrong, my father often tell me how disappointed and sad he is just because i said no to smth. My mom, she slander not only me but my brother for a very long time. She have forced my brother to be naked and go outside in the middle of the city and told me to call my brother's friends. We both suffer from emotion neglect. But idk if, im a bad kid or not, i feel like, im toxic and dramatic for being this way when my parents treat me well sometimes. Most of the time, my mom comparing my pain to kids living in poverty area or kids who done really well at school. Mind you, im have done quite a lot and got great score too,but it never fits my parents expectation. I have been living in severed stress and anxiety for 5 years. im going through 3 really bad depression already