I'm genuinely gonna kill myself. I can't do this anymore, I'm tired. The last few months sucked. I got beat for no reason. I got called disrespectful and having a tone because I tried to help my friend and be considerate. I just got yelled at because I woke up. My stomach hurts but I want to get some medicine. My hypersexuality is killing me. My test scores suck, my grades suck. I'm not smart. I'm stupid. I can't do this. I get upset over the tiniest irritation from my friends. I get upset from sad songs. I'm an emotional ***** ** ****. I don't matter to anyone. Everybody's life will be so much better if I just die. I promised I would stop cutting myself, but I didn't. I'm a ******* liar. Everybody's life would be so much better. I mean so much better if I just genuinely die. They spend their money on me and they spend. Sit there and joke around me and I feel like I'm making their lives worse. I want to die. I need to die. I literally can't do this anymore.