My friend just killed himself. Now i feel guilty for wanting to attempt to. I feel like an attention seeker and i should have paid more attention to how he was feeling. I want to cry, but i just feel numb. I feel like a failure because almost all of my friends are struggling and I've always been the friend who helps. I'm just a waste at this point. I cant commit though because I'm to scared to die but at the same time i don't want to be here anymore.