I’m gonna share what I wrote in my notes: I am… unsure… about it all. I hate that hes putting all this on me. “If you aren’t okay w this, I’m giving you the chance to leave.” And similar sentiments while still saying he wants to marry me. I expressed that he is imposing his religion on me. He admitted it is controlling and acknowledged that I left my home to escape that but conceded that “he has to do it for my good.” Like??? I don’t believe in any of your stuff, why should it matter if I do smth your religion doesnt like? It’s not mine, it’s yours. I think… there isn’t any way for me to be happy in this marriage. Hes perfect everywhere else. I am sacrificing my being for some fictional god. I am so very depressed. He isn’t who my mind wants him to be, and I have to accept that. He doesn’t love me fully and I have to decide if I can live with that. Or maybe I can ctrlaltdel… why must I be responsible? I might stay way past the amount of time I should, but I know it wont work.