my social anxiety is literally destroying me. for some reason even though i have friends and know a good amount of people, i just overthink what im gonna say/do before every encounter. i feel so awkward and embarrassed all the time and just so insecure about everything. my mom yells at me all the time for "not speaking up for myself" and it makes me feel even worse. yesterday she told me she felt sad and pitied me because on my graduation day, everyone was taking pictures with their friends and posting them and she saw that i hadnt posted any pictures with my friends and asked me if i even had any. it literally ruined my whole mood. she knows i have friends, i went out with my friends the day before and was even getting ready to go to a birthday party that i was invited to by one of my friends. i just feel like its so over for me and my life and i wish i was just able to not care about anything anymore.