Selective Mutism ruined my life. I've always been to myself, quiet, avoiding anything that had to do with speaking to others. But I'm 23, and I have no friends. My boyfriend is the only person I have close to my age...and he lives 40+ hours away. Because of my sm, my family doesn't even talk to me. I live with my dad, my stepmom, and 3 year old brother. They say maybe 4 or 5 things to me a day. It's such an awful feeling when my parents will talk to everyone else but never say anything to me. It's like I don't even exist. And most of the time I'm thinking 'if I left, they wouldn't even notice' . I've never had any help with my sm, never gotten therapy. and that's all I want. I want to get help. I want friends. I want my family to like me... I've mentioned getting a job, something to help me get started, but all they do is laugh and go 'You'll have to talk haha!' like yeah. no shit. ugh. I hate myself and i feel so alone.