I don't know what's wrong with me, it's like everyday is the same like I'm in a loop I can't seem to stop. I'm stuck in my room every single day, laying in bed not able to get up, it's not because I'm lazy but because I honestly can't. I don't want to feel like this anymore, I'm so alone and empty. I miss having friends to talk to, to go out with. But I cut everyone off, I don't know how to talk to people anymore it's like I'm just there, I don't feel wanted anywhere and I don't know where I belong. Even in my own mind I feel I don't belong. I stare at the cracks on the ceiling of my room, trying to spell out words for how I feel, yet there's none because I don't know how to explain this constant ache. I'm so utterly lonely and upset with myself.