I feel really bad but I'm starting to dislike all my friends. It's so tiring hanging out with them since I'm always the one that sticks out somehow. in every small way I don't fit in with the rest of them. I feel alone despite having friends but its not like any of them make an effort to talk to me. most of them only talk to me when the need/want something now that I think about it. I wish I knew how to make friends but I freeze up when talking to people online and anytime I try chatrooms its just people wanting sexual gratification. I feel a lot better splitting off on my own but I don't want them all to think I'm doing it for attention since I don't like being left out. but I think if they cared they would've included me. I don't know, I'm just tired of them.