I just needed to rant to and release my sadness and try to finally move on to hopefully bigger things. I was in a three year relationship with who I thought was the love of my life. We did long distance for two of those years and then they moved down to live with me for one year. I didn’t even realize what a huge mistake that was going to be. I was such a verbally abusive partner to them and they were cheating on me behind my back and refusing to get a job. I finally sought help right when the relationship was dead, and I was diagnosed with bipolar 1. I started on my journey to get medicated and swore to them I will be a better person. But they already decided to leave me for the person they were taking to. I should be understanding. I should not still be so angry and upset about why they didn’t stand by me on my journey to get better not only for them but for me. I am resentful that they didn’t just leave me instead of cheating on me. Thank you for letting me be so open and rant.