im in a sexless marriage. I'm in constant fear that I will be left alone in my life because I don't give my husband sex. he has told me many times that I don't need to have sex with him to show my love. but I know how men are. after all I am one. desires build up and I know this isn't good for anyone of us. sometimes I feel like he deserves better and I shouldn't be with him. after all iim just an MA. I never went to college and he's a BSN. any given point I wonder if hell just snap and leave me and where does that leave me. back to where I started. lost and alone and I already messed up my relationship with my mom. I don't have anyone else....I mean I do. of course I do. but not like im supposed to. or at least how I think im supposed to. anyways im just spilling word vomit at this point. thank you for letting me vent.