my friends dont want to hear my bullshit anymore. not even my boyfriend can handle it anymore. all I do is complain. theyre all going to leave me one day. im just making everyone's lives worse. i dont want to do this anymore. im so disgusting. i refuse to let people call this depression, that makes the people who are really struggling, who sre really dealing with something, seem meaningless. Im just a lazy asshole who cant get their shit together. i cant do this