I can’t fucking escape my thoughts. I’m scared of myself. the thoughts are harming others won’t go away. I don’t want to hurt him, or her, even if they are little pieces of shit. even if they hurt me and my friends. I can’t bring myself to hurt them. for god’s sake this has been happening since the goddamn sixth grade. if he kicks me one more time I swear to god I going to strangle him and kill him. but wha5 if I can’t control myself and REALLY kill him. oh god I can already see the blood on my hands, the grip spots on his neck. i want to feel something, without hurting them. I can’t feeling anything. I want to cry, but something WONT FUCKING LET ME. I CANT ESCAPE THE THOUGHTS. oh lord have mercy, someone needs to confine me somewhere, I don’t think I can hold it in any longer. I’ve been getting more and more angry and irritable. I’m sure it will happen this next school year. I’m sure I will lose control and kill him. I’m scared. I’m fucking scared. please, someone needs to help me.