this feeling of nothingness. it keeps haunting me. randomly. this feeling will come back to torture me. please. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get out of my head. get. out. of. my. fucking. head. i don't want to deal with you anymore. not ever again. i don't want to hurt anyone's feelings like i did earlier. i don't want them to feel bad. i don't want them to care about me. and you ruin it. why must you make me feel like this? those voices. they keep coming back. just to tell me that i deserve all of this. that i deserve to be tortured like this. all of this is thanks to you and i. it's my fault for getting myself stuck in this state. i hate how my brain works. i hate living in a girl's body. it doesn't feel like my own (and yes, i'm a transboy). i hate myself. and i hate you for making me feel like this. i cut myself with a pencil earlier just to feel something again. because of you. you're the reason i relapsed.