I have been holding this for years and I wanted it to die with me but I can't hold it anymore. I had a situation where I did some sexual actions with one of my female cousins and we never got caught. But one day I was in 4th grade and me and this girl was touching each others privates while in the library section of class. She told on me that day and we both got in trouble and I ratted my cousin out. Saying she touched me first and DHS got involved. I did this to save my own ass because I was too much of a coward to say I did it and I am ashamed of it. I look back on this moment and wish I never let it get this far. I feel that I should be shamed for this and its all my fault. I still see this cousin but we never talk about that moment and barely talk. Though its for the best. I feel dirty every time I think back on that moment and wish I could just rid it from my mind forever.